My husband and I got married aug 2017 and just a very few short months after that we found out the best news, we were expecting! We both had so much joy and happiness about this wonderful news. All the dr appointments were going good and we found out our little baby was a boy and things were so perfect!  Around 22 weeks I started to feel off, I just knew something wasn’t right. I had what I thought was awful heartburn. I couldn’t focus, lightheaded, and just out of it. I decided at 22 weeks and 4 days to go to a pharmacy and get my blood pressure checked and the first time it said error and I knew then something bad was happening but no clue what. They checked again and it was 200s over 100s. We went straight to the hospital. They took me back right away and my blood pressure was still high and they got blood work right away. My liver enzymes were elevated and platelets were low and they told me then I had preeclampsia and I would possibly be delivering that night. I will never forget looking over at my husband completely out of it because they started me on magnesium to keep me from having a seizure and I just cried. I had no idea what to think or do. A few minutes after that they seemed to be getting my blood pressure to go down and decided to move me to labor and delivery and said that now they won’t deliver me tonight but I will be staying in the hospital until my little guy arrives.  That night nicu came in and basically said if I deliver soon the chances are very very low of survival and so I had to sit there on magnesium completely out of it and try to take in the information. If I deliver in the next couple days that my babies survival rate isn’t very high. My heart was broke!  I was in the hospital feb 4, 2018 - feb 18, 2018. So many ups and downs but each day was a celebration that I made it another day. My liver enzymes started to get a little better but my platelets were going down and my blood pressure was under control for the most part.  The morning of feb 16th I went down for a ultrasound and you could see his little beating heart but he wasn’t moving and wouldn’t react to anything. They decided he was under stress and we needed to get him out right then. My mom called my husband and they rushed me to prep me for the csection. At this point I was 24 weeks and 2 days. I was so scared but hardly had time to even process anything. Thankfully my husband made it and they started the csection. They warned me I wouldn’t hear any cries but when you actually don’t hear the cries of your baby being born it hits hard. The nicu team took Oliver and started working on him right away. They got me into recovery and I got to see him for about a minute and they had to rush him to another hospital. I again was put back on magnesium and completely out of it and wanted to have feelings about all of this but my body wouldn’t let me. I slept a lot from all the meds I was put on. Finally I got off the magnesium and decided on feb 18th I wanted to go visit Oliver. So this was possible but you had to ride with security since I was still admitted to the hospital I was at. I went over and seen him and I couldn’t believe how perfect he was but yet so sick. I loved him so much. Things started to really take a turn for the worse that afternoon and I decided it would be best for me to stay. It was a very rough night for my baby and that next morning on feb 19th, I held Oliver as he took his last breath. I couldn’t believe it. I just kept thinking why me! Why do I have to kiss my baby for the last time and leave him, this isn’t how it should be!  I miss him so much and think of him every single day. Preeclampsia changed my life forever and this is why it’s so important to me to walk in the Cleveland promise walk! This is one way we honor Oliver and it means the world to us.  Please join us June 13th at James Day Park and learn more about preeclampsia. It’s a wonderful event and It’s helped me in so many ways. Thank you for visiting my 2020 Promise Walk for Preeclampsia fundraising page. I am grateful for your donations and for your help in spreading the word about preeclampsia. My goal is to help our community raise funds and awareness and save the lives of moms and babies! Please make a donation to support our efforts to fund education and research into this life-threatening disorder of pregnancy.