In late 2017, Jason and I were expecting our second child…but unfortunately, we had to say goodbye to that baby before we ever got the chance to say hello. The loss was due to a miscarriage on December 18th and in the place of a baby that day we received an angel instead.

I have barely wanted to face the world. I am devastated beyond comprehension. My heart has shattered and a part of me is now missing with no hopes of getting it back. The emotional pain has been intense, harder than anything else I have ever gone through and the feelings are so strong I could never properly express the pain in words and feel it could ever do it true justice.

This experience has changed me, I feel defeated and broken but I cannot let it destroy me. I have to be a warrior and push on. I will never get over the loss of my second child but The Star Legacy Foundation has supplied me with counseling and resources to get the help I continue to need.

I have met some very amazing mothers and fathers who are also dealing with pregnancy and infant loss and for them, and myself, I need to fight through this.  In the spirit of me pushing on, I want to help and give back to the wonderful organization and people that have helped me through this awful event.   

Even though we never go to hold him or her they were very much loved just the same.